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You have asked why did I smile Why did I go the extra mile I told you that I've surrendered I've taken all the guards off, with you I've been shaken up and blown apart Why have you shattered the guard of my heart? I told you that I've surrenderd I've been falling apart You came in and lifted me up You came with the map With all the routes straight to my heart You have made my system restart Just like the phoenix I've risen from the burnt ashes Just like the phoenix I have opted to start again But I wasn't afraid I told you that I've surrendered I've been shattered and you have pulled me together That's why I went the extra mile That's why I kept up the smile You came up, with all the routes directed straight to my heart You have shattered me apart You have built me up Like the phoenix, I've risen from the ashes Like the phoenix, I had a new fresh start

That's when my mom is trying to be funny. Mom: "What is this bread name?"  Me: "jabeta bread". Mom: "i should have named you that!". The next morning - Mom:"hi jabeta".

" If only they could see If only they had been here They would understand How someone could have chosen To go the length I've gone To spend just one day riding Holding on to you I never thought it would be this clear" Read more:  Kings Of Convenience - Cayman Islands Lyrics | MetroLyrics  

I was waiting anxiously for their second album part and the upcoming videos. I mean the music sounds not bad, but the video itself - I'm sorry to say is kinda boring. The story of the lyrics should have been portrayed maybe a bit differently. But i do like the rhythm, it sounds nice. I like the the 80's kind of sound in the beginning of the music video. I personally like this kind of sound, as i was growing up in the nineties -  my mom used to listen to a lot of music from the 80's, so it like throws me back in time. I really enjoyed watching the second m/v dumb and dumber, i love it, i think it's really catchy and i can see myself working out to this music! which is good, it means it can motivate you. I think this song would be played a lot in Korean clubs, it has a really good rhythm. I liked the song because it's more easy going, and we're all act dumb sometimes, and even dumber at other times, and it's fun, we need to remeber that we don

I have been on a long run I was on the run from the world I was trying to get a hold A hold of myself A hold of you Ahead I saw your face Your familiar features Ahead I saw a random person It was not you Yet again I pasted your features On someone else's Why would I give up on all those chances All the chances I could have kept you close All the chances I could have decreased the remorse Instead, i look ahead and choose someone  randomly I'm on a total loose I'm going looking for someone Looking for one to put my mind on repeat To put my mind to restless sleep I want my mind to repeat the moments The moments I have said hello The short moments in time I didn't hold myself back I bet you were taken aback I held you tight and didn't let you go Ahead I saw your face Your familiar features Ahead I saw a random person And yet it wasn't you I longed to hold you in my arms again I knew there was a moment in time I didn't want to r

The credit for the gorgoeus painting goes to my beautiful friend Maria , and the quote is from my poem  "we were dreamers" , posted sometime in october, feel free to check it out. I have a dream, and it's to publish a poetry book. Would you like to to see an illustrated poetry book? I don't really know if any of you ever read what i write, but i'd love to hear which poems from those that are featured in the blog, would you like to see in a book and if you like them to be illustrated, feel free to leave a comment :)

The below new poem talks about a woman who had a depression or has a mental illness, due to her state she thought her husband doesn't love her anymore and drifted apart. Then she realized her fault, it took her time to really say sorry, and for her husband to realize that she is fine and to welcome her back. Sorry for the sleepless nights Sorry for the rigidity road that is still ahead Sorry for not holding your hands Sorry for not making amends I've said sorry for so many times I've said sorry when the leaves turned green I've said sorry when the leaves turned yellow He looked up at the skies above He hasn't recognized me, no more He has left our memories at the shore The shore where I've asked for forgiveness The shore where we once made love at The shore where we first met at I couldn't get you for so long I thought that we were drifting apart I felt no more My mind was shut I blamed you for all along When the moment struck me I k

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You woke up in the morning and began your long stroll I looked at you from behind and thought Clueless, that I'd analyze your every step, I looked at your posture, I knew what it meant I very well knew how was it to hug you from behind I knew just by looking at it How strong headed are you Just as clueless as I was I've never understood how my assumptions were miles away From the real truth Yet, I kept picturing Picturing different realities My head was full of half truths Looking back I smirk, How clueless was I? I thought about what you said That day the sun was shining so bright I was stunned by the sudden heat that had taken over my body You looked at me with your blue eyes I could see clear sea depths in them I could see your future words I already knew how you'd laugh When I'd tell you its all over All over, yet again I thought I could analyze your every move I thought I understood the meaning behind your silky voice I thought I

I'm dancing along to the music, That's playing in my mind, The rhythm is making my body move to its beat, I can't stop, just move along the melody, Wishing to have you dancing right beside, Why can't I let these memories aside? Why would I only recall you through that same tune? Why can't I be immune? I keep moving to the melody of our hearts, When did it all begin? Just like every love story starts, You captured me right then with a single gaze, Since, I've been living in a haze, Our eyes met and it was like magic, A magic moment in our sad love story, We were living like on a deserted island, We were its only inhabitants, We were dancing to our heart rhythms, We didn't know that we already were imagining our bittersweet end, Once our eyes met, we already felt its bittersweet taste, It was one single magical moment, A magical moment that has its bittersweet end, The moment our tune ended, I smiled because I knew I needed

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Soaked wet, coughing out last breath I'm determined to meet your gaze Ive been lost for long You were my breath to take, in order to survive I wont hide anymore I wont look for the safer shore Id fight to the core Of you and me Ill make myself found Ill make myself known Soaked wet, i lingered for your hand Your gaze was away, You were gazing at the known You were gazing at the found Ill show you i wont sway No more will i put myself Through this turmoil of fright Ill make my sight So it'd be so bright You wont be able to take your eyes To take your eyes off of me Please hold a bit You'll be able to see Not only did i linger to be seen But i wanted to be found Found by your sweet gaze So ill finally put an end to that haze Ill finally step out from that maze

We were dreamers, We had wild dreams of futuristic life, We cherished the future moment more, We raised our hopes up for a dreamy illusion. You and i were on a wild scary high road, we were passing the deserted scenery, Always, on our way to catch yet another dandelion of our cherished future dream. How would we know that it was just a remarkable unrealistic illusion? When we were young we were told to dream big, What do you do when you become big, And all these dreams quickly turn to a pretty painting in the louver museum. Something beautiful and so out of reach. We were dreamers We have dreamt of a house up at the Hollywood heights, We were dreaming until we gave up, We gave up and never realized Even though the road is deserted and scary, There might be still  the home That we were dreaming of all along.

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Hey guys! At first, I'd like to say that I'm not really a SNSD fan, i do like their recent songs and  I've been listening to " lionheart " on repeat, i really liked the video and the 60's kind of feeling to it. I  had no clue that Taeyeon was meaning on releasing her solo album. That's how clueless i were regarding doings of the members of that group. So lets talk about her first single and m/v - "I". I loved that it was filmed in the most gorgeous New Zealand scenery, if not the music then the scenery took your breath away for 100%. According to wiki , Taeyeon did co wrote the lyrics to that song, which is amazing! i love when artists put their soul into their music, it's more authentic like that. However, i was wondering how could  she personally  relate to the storyline the m/v pictured? I mean i liked the idea of breaking free of your normal routine life while working as a waitress at some restaurant you weren't exactly been

Needles to say that I'm a kpop addict. I guess people that are going through my blog can see tons of korean music videos, whether these songs are from recent boy/girl bands or from korean drama osts. I Love it all! I'm listening to all my songs on YouTube or soundlcoud. I'm a big YouTube fan, l really like watching kpop music reviews and just youtube channels of people videotaping their experiences while living abroad or trying out new stuff. Recently, I've seen a review of pretty famous youtuber  Jre   and i really liked his channel. There was one video, i guess the one about him reading b-day wishes letters he got from his fans, and during that video, I think he said that all of us could find our path to share our love for KPOP. So i got really inspired, and i think that I'll start writing written reviews of the recent m/v of my favorite idols, or idols i think will be my new faves in the future. I want to share one of the reaction videos made by JRE

לאחרונה, כולם במרדף אחרי העבודה הבאה, אחרי צבירת הניסיון , אחרי העבודה עם התנאים הטובים יותר והמשכורת היותר טובה.  מה זה אומר לגבי שאני לא רוצה להשתתף במרדף הזה?  אני לא רואה את עצמי צוברת ניסיון בתמיכה טכנית, באנגלית בלבד, במשמרות לילה. 1. עד מתי המרדף הזה אחרי הזוהר והבלינג בלינג? 2. עד מתי יגידו לי ויפנו אלי אצבע מאשימה שאני נמצאת בנתיב מהיר לסטארדום ולא עושה כלום כדי לתת פוש אחרון לעבר התפקיד עם הרכב הצמוד, עם הטיסות לחו"ל דרך טרקלין הvip? למה אני מרגישה כמו בגן חיות, שבו מלך האריות חפץ לרמוס אותי בכל עת?

People talk, people talk But they don't wanna say what they're really trying to say Hopes and fears, smoke and mirrors Save all the thinking, words by themselves they just fade

"We build, we box, we carry on As people we forgot Strange we come to find ourselves not knowing we're lost"

JoJo's finally back! and she's going to kick some ass!!!! 

You've been searching Have you found many things? Time for learning Why have I not learnt a thing?

סיימתי לקרוא היום את הספר "קולו של המלאך". זאת הפעם הראשונה שאני קוראת ספר מאת הסופר הזה וחייבת לציין שאהבתי את סגנון הכתיבה שלו.  הספר ליווה אותי לרב ברביצה על חוף ים בתל אביב. כלומר, מדובר בספר קל וקצר שכיף לעלעל בו כשנחים על החוף או ספר נחמד שאפשר לקחת לטיסה. אני כנראה אשכח את העלילה די מהר, כי הסיפור עם התהפוכות שבו עדיין די צפוי וכריזמטי מספיק כדי לעניין אבל לא כדי להשאיר רושם לזמן רב. העלילה בקצרה: גבר ואישה שבטעות מחליפים את הניידים שלהם בנמל התעופה ומגלים כי חייהם שזורים זה בזה יותר ממה שהם יכלו לתאר לעצמם, ומכאן העלילה מתחילה להירקם. נורא אהבתי את הציטוטים שפתחו כל פרק בספר: 1. "הדבר היחיד שיכול להחליף את התלות בעבר היא התלות בעתיד." ג'ון דוס פסוס 2. "כשאתה אוהב מישהו, אתה מקבל אותו כפי שהוא, על כל קשריו, מחויבויותיו.אתה מקבל את ההיסטוריה שלו,את העבר ואת ההווה שלו. אתה מקבל הכול - או כלום." אר-ג'יי אלורי 3. "אף אחד לא יכול לעטות מסכה לאורך זמן." סנקה 4. "אינני יודע לאן פונה דרכי, אבל אני צועד טוב יותר כ

Recently, i was thinking about the perspectives we have about life. I mean a life perspective is important when we judge  situations in life that are quite harsh. It's important to have not only an objective perspective but also an optimistic one. Sometimes, when we feel bad or think that someone is at fault, maybe the real situation was that no one's was really at fault, but we wanted to assign this clinging feeling of disappointment or stress or hurt feeling to someone real, someone that was close to us the moment we felt that strong feeling. It's easier to attach the "bad" feeling to someone close to us, rather than going on with that bad mood clinging to us, and never knowing or realizing what's wrong. There might be a situation that would make someone to raise an eyebrow and make them think that someone is using me for their benefit, but it's easier to think the bad things, like "oh yeah, he needs her so he's using her and she has no clue

Sometimes I feel like I'm living inside a science fiction film. While I'm sleeping, my world viewed as an action packed mission impossible movie. I feel like an energizer battery, all fueled up, till I wake up. Once I'm awake I feel kind of disappointment. Why the heck can't I be or behave the way I see myself? I mean, why do I need to do ridiculous changes, like changing my hair color to a rainbow ombre? I feel like a Korean rapper wannabe. For the past few days it had been easier for me to fall asleep, as I was eager to enter the life I wish I really was living.  I always told and was told that you live the life you chose, but did I really choose? Or am I going on blind folded? Am I still too afraid to make a real choice? I mean, not choosing is also some kind of choice I made, maybe a stupid one, but still a choice. I always thought living recklessly won't do me any good, but that's what I've been really doing.

Oh my god, how crazy is the music industry. I remember Esmee from back then, i think it was around 2008 when i first saw her videos on her YouTube page. Then, out of a sudden she was discovered by Justin Timberlake, and i was like thinking that she's going to have the same storyline career-wise just like Justin Bieber, who knew that she'd disappear few years later and reappear on the UK's "The Voice" show. I guess nothing in life is stable and you always have to continue your fight in order to achieve your dream. However, i must say that i was surprised to see how humble she appeared to be,  i really hope she manages to release her EP soon :D

Voices inside my head I'm being hunted by my minds demons, sitting alone on the wooden flooring, shivering, The wind goes through my see through night gown. My mouth is humming to the sound of the curtains quite movement; I notice the small light coming from my neighbor's far away window, I wonder what are they doing up. How do I make my mind to shut up? I can't stop the never ending voices traffic inside my head, How well do I need to hide? Standing up was not an option, as I collapse the second I make a single try, how do I stop that humming that keeps its flow?

It feels like for a while,  I have not been myself, It feels like that all i have been doing is killing time, And that time everyone was sure that i was fine, I found myself being blunt, Feeling happy every now and then, Looking right ahead to pull another stunt, Was it really me? was i on a hunt? It feels like i was going in circles, There are no stops ahead, I'm going on and making a show, I'm smiling because you think it's real, While I'm going ahead after another hunt, Would i be able to pull another stunt? With time i feel my heart getting more blunt, and my soul getting ripped apart from inside, How well do you think you know? You think you know that I'm playing just a game, A game of lies in which we both gonna win, However, I've never really meant for you to win, I've pulled another stunt, what a shame, I've never intended to play a fair game, I was on a hunt and the ultimate prize, Was never ever there for me to reach. 

Sometimes people tend to judge you by your cover, and not by what is really inside. So you tend to think it's useless to prove your being. Once I heard the following saying:"There are two kinds of people in the whole wide world. The first one is the observer, and the second one it the one being observed". For a long time, I've been that observer, looking at people, at what they wear and at how they behave, I was fascinated. However, sometimes I also want to be the one being observed. When you're the observer you tend to face a lot of solitude. I feel like I'm not living my life, I'm just watching from the side, so it can become quite frustrating. When i watch a tv show with a couple cycling in the park, having a picnic by the river. I feel like these situations may occur in a parallel life to my own. I'm doing my best to enjoy the little things we encounter every day. I prefer taking the bus route with view of the sea,even though it takes a l

"Please don't make a fuss It won't go away The wonder of it all The wonder that I made  I am here to stay" #DearJohnSoundtrack

Why do we have this undeniable "I got caught feeling", when we meet a co worker or someone we know with their girlfriend, that girlfriend we didn't know about, but we also not that close to each other - so why would we care? I often think about situations like that - what do they even mean? Does it mean that we are attracted to each other?what is this uneasy feeling that gets attached to this out of blue situation? Is there a chance that your mind has formed a defense shield against the possibility of unrequited love? so therefore you are not able to feel like you have a chance to ever fall in love. There are many theories regarding relationships among and between human beings.  When do i know that I'm a part of the statistics made for these theories? Yet again, a question arises, would i be able to feel again? or have i lost it forever? Strangely, after a few tiring weeks - i went outside and breathed in the air and enjoyed the sun rays, that was quite magi

When you go on and live your life, there are not many times that you come across those that make you move your shield aside. When i meet those kind of people i feel like i can breathe again. It's astonishing how to the meeting point i was even breathing at all. There were moments when I've seen high building or was on a high road bridge, in those moments a thought sometimes came to me - how would i feel if i ever to stand on that edge of the bridge? will i ever dare to jump? Human beings are an interesting material to think and write about. sometimes when i watch other human beings, there's this thought that lingers and comes up - am i really one of them? Why do this feeling of not fitting in still accompanies me in my journey,is there a way to avoid it?

" False start ya sleepy head I'm caught in the day With my nightdreams  And my mistakes "

I always thought that i t is funny that inside my head existed a parallel universe.  When I'm walking with my eyes open i feel like i live a dual life. So, how do you ask me is that possible? Inside my head I'm a born hip hop artist. I dance wistfully and sing along with my mischievous voice. In reality i can neither dance nor sing. How is it like to a live a life, when what you think and feel is not the same way other may get you - you can seem like a total different person out of your comforting shielded mind.

Locked behind my mind's gate Reaching out and only getting burnt All the rage is heating up and making it hard Hard for me to escape The instant release of all the anger that was building up Just like the walls around me I've been caging up my agony Now, like a time bomb, There's no time for you to run away before the blast, I'm closing my eyes and feel the burning clustered clutter inside, Feeling cautious, behind locked doors of my mind, Please try to escape, before the words are said at last. Hold on; don't try to break inside the unbreakable shield, Am I a big made out mess or made out scheme? Just like the walls around me I've been caging up my agony Would you make the clutter to make sense? Would you realize that I also need a chance?

I've started reading it not so long ago. I feel like the feelings that being portrayed by the protagonist really suit my own, i know it's totally crazy. However, is it possible that i see myself through the main character? Some quotes i liked:   "I’m not very good at putting my feelings into words. That’s why people misunderstand me." “I’m not all that smart. It takes me a while to understand things. But if I do have the time, I will come to understand you — better than anyone else in the world.”

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