candleburn

Why do we have this undeniable "I got caught feeling", when we meet a co worker or someone we know with their girlfriend, that girlfriend we didn't know about, but we also not that close to each other - so why would we care? I often think about situations like that - what do they even mean? Does it mean that we are attracted to each other?what is this uneasy feeling that gets attached to this out of blue situation? Is there a chance that your mind has formed a defense shield against the possibility of unrequited love? so therefore you are not able to feel like you have a chance to ever fall in love. There are many theories regarding relationships among and between human beings.  When do i know that I'm a part of the statistics made for these theories? Yet again, a question arises, would i be able to feel again? or have i lost it forever? Strangely, after a few tiring weeks - i went outside and breathed in the air and enjoyed the sun rays, that was quite magi

When you go on and live your life, there are not many times that you come across those that make you move your shield aside. When i meet those kind of people i feel like i can breathe again. It's astonishing how to the meeting point i was even breathing at all. There were moments when I've seen high building or was on a high road bridge, in those moments a thought sometimes came to me - how would i feel if i ever to stand on that edge of the bridge? will i ever dare to jump? Human beings are an interesting material to think and write about. sometimes when i watch other human beings, there's this thought that lingers and comes up - am i really one of them? Why do this feeling of not fitting in still accompanies me in my journey,is there a way to avoid it?

" False start ya sleepy head I'm caught in the day With my nightdreams  And my mistakes "