candleburn

Photo by  Isai Ramos  on  Unsplash I have tried to steer clear from the evil spirits, yet, they had kept hunting me down, and I could not have anticipated the aftermath I have been running for miles never stopping to look back as I was scared they were still behind I had reiterated your past words the words that kept me going whenever I needed a reminder of better days I’d close my eyes and recall your enormous smile when you told me that those just voices in my head I kept moving never pausing to look back as I could never anticipate the aftermath once they’d conquer my soul

Lost inside my head. Utter confusion. It can seem that there's an entire day full of possibilities, but once you start to check off tasks from the daily mental checklist, it seems like you will never be able to get to the 2nd or 3rd item on the list, as the 1st item execution drains out your energy entirely. During work hours, I have managed to escape this beast that was tantalizing me on my days off. At work, it seemed like I was doing fine, I could focus on the daily tasks and finish most of them by the end of the day. Maybe in retrospect, I was not doing so well, I felt always so self-conscious and my clients managed to push me to my limits. I remember numerous occasions on which I raised my voice during conversations on the phone, which was not at all typical, and there were times I was crying the entire conversation and trying miserably to disguise it. Going forward, I was trying to analyze and understand what it is. I was scrolling through my Pinterest app, looking

Muster the courage Is what you told me “I wish I had the strength” My mouth murmured I wish I could get out From the darkness I am being weaved to I wish to erase my harried face from your memory just erase it all No matter how small Or big it seemed I want to start again The confused heartbeat silently beating to your harsh words Yes I have plunged into the depths of the sea afraid of divulging what I tried hard to never confide I wish I could get out From the hell that I gently sank into Your look pierced hard through my flesh but I’ve never moved forward I felt that yet another storm was impending to make my confused heartbeat beat harder to make me stray away I longed for a fresh start for my heartbeats to follow yours longed to erase my harried face longed to confide in you to find hope