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The translation of what Tablo was saying ( as appears in the description box beneath the video): At the time, I thought that it would be my last album. Actually, I didn't even think that I was working on an album. It was more like I was leaving for a faraway place and had to pack things away and empty out my room. That was my mindset when I started writing. That's how the album "Fever's End" came to be. But what I thought would be the end turned out to be a new beginning. Sometimes, still, I'm overcome with fear and worry, but that's when I think of the people that said this album gave them strength. I think of the people that were there for me. Five years have passed, but I wanted to say "thank you." I want you to know I'm here for you too. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I must say that I adore Tablo,  He is such a genuine and kind perso...

" We don't talk anymore! We don't talk anymore! We don't talk anymore! Like we used to do..."

What do you do What do you do when The path you have chosen Isn't the right one? What do you do At this time and age? One day I woke up And realized I was underwater I woke up at this time and age And I breathed in I could live but barely I breathed the water And it felt like bare air What do you do When one day you wake up And you find yourself Underwater Yeah you are underwater What do you do then? What do you do at this time and age? One day I woke up Yeah I woke up And I was underwater I breathed in the water That seemed like bare air But I didn't suffocate No part of me ached I woke up and realized That even at this time and age I needed to look for a new path Even at this time and age I was still breathing in Being underwater.

Yesterday, my bestie and i have celebrated 11 years of knowing each other. My friend lives in Berlin whereas i live in Israel, we've never met, but our friendship evolved throughout the years.  I've learnt that you don't need to physically meet a person to have a special bond, it's more than that. I and my bestie managed to be in touch throughout the years. We've started talking on celebrity forums and then we moved to MSN and facebook. We always figured how to communicate, we always tried to understand the other side perspective, which is a very important aspect, you really need to respect the other side  and understand where the other person is coming from. My friend decided to make 11 different kind of lists that actually describe our friendship. I'd like to post them here and share it with you guys. These lists made me incredibly happy and sad, it was such a great gift, it really touched my heart. The lists: 11 places we should travel to: 1. Seo...

Recently a lot of thoughts had been on my mind. I always try to put these thoughts away, but I can't seem to do it. Perhaps the heat of the past few weeks has been playing games with my mind, and I just can't make myself think straight. I think that I have some anxiety problems; I never really talk about it, because I never really grasped the idea. But I do have difficulties being around large groups of people whom I don’t know, Or even being around a new person at work When I encounter a new person at work that I've never really talked to, and feel that the person never even tries to make a conversation, makes me feel quite anxious just because I tend to make up stories in my mind, stories that are  actually reasons for why that person isn't approaching me first. I've always led a complicated life, the complication was inside my mind and not visible to the outside world. I have struggled with this situation for years, and I'm still struggling. It...

I don't have any guts to spare I'm left with nothing I'm left with my own bare hands You have striked me Where it hurts the most You have striked me hard I wished you would strike some more With each strike, i become tougher With each strike I'm left with nothing With nothing to lose So go ahead, make your next step I will stay here stagnantly at the same place So go, look ahead Try to push me I'm left with nothing to lose I don't have any guts to spare You pushed me to the point That I no longer care You thought that we were on adventure On a joint venture Yet you pushed me hard enough You have pushed me and me Don't have any more guts to spare I no longer care So go ahead and do your next move I'll be going out, moving to my own groove Your venture has sparked its final fire So move  along  Move along to your own groove

I've been having some hard time the past few days.  I know that no one really reads my blog, therefore no one would care, but i guess in the future when i'll read it, I'll probably look at it with other perspective in my mind.  As we grow older, we tend to see the world in a different light. My friend and i did a project for college, a project about identifying a real client needs and finding the technological solution that is most  suitable. I must say that this client is a very big company here, and as a matter of fact I'm also their client. Throughout the project, we suffered from continuous remarks from our clients, not one remark was regarding the solution we had came up with, we suffered a lot from this, we've mentioned these facts to our courses administration team, but as we figured later it came to hunt us. In the review upon our work we've received remarks such as "you don't understand clients needs, you have  not   chosen a good solution...

We are all different kinds of lost souls, You and I have been torn inside. We were on a special quest A quest that will put a stop to the unending void The void that makes us frozen at nights That void that we try so desperately to hide I might have been on a special quest A quest to resurge from my own little world Yet, the world outside, Had always remained as cold I was so lost, I was on a quest, On a quest to find a meaning, I tried to grab your arm, but you've pushed me away I kept on going, nevertheless I kept going, my mind is a total mess We are all different kinds of lost souls We're going ahead You and I are fighting through, in our own way, Through the roaming people Who had remained as cold I'm trying to ignite the light of a single hope A hope that will keep away the stagnant void You've said that time is coming to let go You've given up You and I are going against the streams of people Their eyes had remained as cold Yet...

I'm so shocked by the recent events that have happened in the US. I'm still heartbroken over Christina's murder, and now this young actor had tragically died due to a car accident. I was in total loss of words, i was not sure if it was really true, until i've seen Dakota's Fanning reaction on Instagram, And many more reactions on twitter. I've not watched many of Anton's movies, and i was not a big fan, but still my heart breaks.

I'm still in a state of shock, i couldn't believe that such a horrible thing could happen to such beautiful soul. In Christina's memory, i've chosen one of her recent covers: Please go and check Chrisitna's music on her youtube page

Slowly, to the sound of the dripping water Slowly, to the sound of my confused heartbeat I slowly approach the end of the day I am confused about whether it's a day or night It doesn't matter, nevertheless I'm confused about where the place I'm standing at Slowly, I approach the end I went in rounds, rounds had I made I followed the drip drop sound I went in rounds, rounds had I made Around my silent heartbeat Slowly, I approach the end I go by the drifting sound I've followed till it stopped As if I was woken up from a long sleep To the sound of my shy heartbeat I was awaken Yet I was confused to where the place I was standing at Confused about whether it was a day or night I was awakened, but I was out of reach I was awaken Helplessly wishing to follow My shy heartbeat Slowly, ill follow Slowly, ill approach the end

I've just finished reading this marvelous book today. Even though, the beginning of the story was really slow, I've tried a few times to read it again from the beginning. After dozens of pages i couldn't let go of the book. The story was captivating and made me teary from time to time. I knew from the start it might be a heart wrenching story, due to the fact that per the synopsis the protagonist was supposed to go on a journey where she finds out more about her family, of the time she never knew that her grandmother spent at her hometown in Paris, France, her life, her siblings. the protagonist is a courageous woman who starts a courageous journey to find the truth about her grandmother's life and family. While unravelling intriguing parts of her lives, that would make her nights become sleepless due to all the thoughts that are clouding her mind, she learns about herself and her family, and figures out some very important life lessons along the way. “Life does...

*** according to some online sources the lyrics was inspired by the movie "The Martian". תוצאות I can't believe that only now have i discovered Yerin. At her young age of 18 she sounds sophisticated and really mature. I'm in love with her solo album, i could really relate to her lyrics, and i was amazed to find out that she  has written all of the songs, and i especially liked the fact that she has songs in English.

נשמות מרחפות בעצלתיים על פני המדרכות הסלולות שמש יוקדת צורבת בפניהן החוורות טיול לאורך המדשאה הצחיחה פנינו אורו לכבוד קרני השמש החמות חיכינו זמן מה וההמתנה תמה לה אני מרחפת ברחוב ללא מוצא מחכה לבריזה הקרה שתציל אותי מחממת הלהבות שבה אני נמצאת אני מרחפת ברחוב ללא מוצא מחפשת אחר נתיב בריחה נתיב הבריחה נמצא בהישג יד אבל בו אני לא בוחרת אני מחכה לארנב מארץ הפלאות שיוביל אותי לידי דרך נוספת דרך לארץ  הפלאות שם בחממה הלהבות, הלהבות קרות למגע שם בחממת הלהבות, הבריזה נושבת מאחור אני מחכה לארנב מארץ הפלאות לארנב שיוביל אותי הרחק מהמקום שבו הנשמות מרחפות בעצלתיים על גבי  המדרכות הסלולות אני מחכה לארנב שיובילני לא אל נתיב הבריחה אלא לארץ הפלאים שבה חשקה נפשי לארץ שבה קסם הוא ברור מאליו שבה אסגור את עיני ומולי יהיו דמויות צבעוניות מרצדות במהירות ארץ הפלאים שלי, היכן את? מדוע אני ממשיכה לנוע בעצלתיים תחת השמש היוקדת? נשמתי נצרבת, ואני ממשיכה כאילו לא ארע דבר אני הולכת לכיוון נתיב הבריחה סלח לי ארנב הקסמים שוויתרתי, בחרתי לברוח ולא להתמודד ע...

לאחרונה אני מנסה לכתוב יותר באנגלית, כי מסיבה מסוימת יותר קל לי להתבטא באנגלית. אני מרגישה שאם תהיה לי שגיאה באנגלית או ניסוח לא תקין, לא באמת יקבלו את זה בצורה קשה. אבל היות ואני "ישראלית" אז כל שגיאה שלי או בעיית דקדוק או מינוח לא נכון יכול להיות מוגדר כ"טיפשות", או חוסר ידע,  ואני לא רוצה להיות מוגדרת באופן הזה. בכל אופן, אני מנסה לכתוב באנגלית כדי שיותר אנשים יוכלו להתחבר לרגשות שלי, וגם כי מאז שהייתי קטנה כל מה שרציתי זה לגרום לאנשים להבין את הצד שלי, להבין מה אני חווה ומרגישה. אנשים כל כך מרוכזים בעולם שלהם, שהם לא מוכנים להבין ולהקשיב לעולמו של האחר, והאחר מוגדר תמיד במינוחים שיכולים לפגוע בו, וזה כמובן לא בכוונת תחילה, אבל עדיין. בבקשה תהיו נחמדים אחד לשני. לאחרונה, ניסיתי לפענח מה אני מרגישה כלפי אנשים, וניסיתי להבין אם אני מחבבת מישהו כי הוא נחמד אלי וכי הרגשתי שהוא "הציל" אותי בכמה מצבים בלימודים. אני חושבת שהוא לא מבין, אבל נראה לי די בזכותו אני עדיין בתואר שלי. היה מבחן אחד שלמדתי אליו קשה אבל עדיין לא הייתי מוכנה והוא העביר ל...

[생댴] 민주의 어머님이 누구니 -  I love "The Ark"  - korean girl band, i really hope the rumors about their disbandment are not true :(

It's true what they say, after midnight you turn into a pumpkin

It can take us a while It can take us an eternity As it might seem at first To notice the faults It takes a while To put our needs first We tend to close our eyes too often We tend to push our own boundaries At the end, we change We change not because we are broken We change because with the faults of others We come to realize our owns You were the best part of my day But you no longer keep defining me I don't see us a package deal anymore It's now you and me We are  now two distinct identities From two distinct lunar systems I don't know why have I endured for so long I don't know what the future holds for the both of us I know that I'm not a part of you anymore I'm entitled to my own happiness Now I'll learn again to be on my own I'll go with what my heart tells is right I'll choose a route that you might Not take along That's OK,  just because, I'm not defined by you anymore

Flashbacks of random people, People whom I once knew, My closed circle that I cherished, I don't know what happened, Life went on and, I'm not inside that circle anymore Flashbacks of different moments Moments in time that I've repressed Did they really happen? Life went on I'm not inside your circle anymore Did you really act like I'm a stranger? I looked at you and disguised my anger I would not have known that with time With time everything gets erased That with time I have got no place left Flashbacks come and get me I try not to look back I would not have known that with time Our memories are going to be erased I would not have known That I might have been no one I would not have known Until life went on You have looked at me And all you could see  is a mere stranger Life went on I guess I understood that I've never been In your circle after all.

We all go through our own mishaps, our first loves, relationships. We grow more with each relationship we have, we become wiser. The below poem is about a moment when we stopped having feelings towards our loved one, it doesn't mean we didn't like them but it felt like we grew apart while our soul kept telling us otherwise. That moment is the hardest, we had been the closest to our loved one and held them tight but like out of the blue we hadn't cared for them as much anymore. This feeling kept bothering us and the person kept appearing in your dreams, but you know there is no way back, you had already let go. The below poem was written while listening to this music: https://soundcloud.com/sophie- hutchings/06-by-night You should listen to the melody and read the lyrics alongside. "Bound to you" I had been having the oddest nights I let you go and wondered why, How could I let you go that easy? Had I never really held you tight? It couldn't be...

I'm so behind on my next exam material, wish me luck anyways.

The emptiness inside The sense of solitude Slight sunshine rays I was struck by noise But all I heard was bare silence The humming voice It wasn't anywhere to be found The emptiness It coated me from within But it wasn't suffocating I was just standing Amazed, like if I was struck by a solitude lightning I opened my eyes the next day All I ever saw, were bare white walls, I was stuck But I didn't feel, Like if I were under an attack Peacefully like you find me strolling But my mind is inside a whirlwind You will say it would be better Later, in hindsight, Yet I won't feel any more assured I can't escape this solitude I can't escape the emptiness I keep walking blindly waiting for the noise to coat me from within For the noise to guard me I will go on, in circles I will diligently wait for the noise To breakthrough I will then feel assured That I was indeed under an attack I was guarded by the bare silence The silence that hel...

Seriously, every time I'm on twitter he posts some kind of heartwarming quote or some "bread" for thought. Go to his twitter - here Something he posted today, and  said that the below text contains  Three important things:

I'm totally like the most ridiculously funny person ever. No matter what simple task i do, i tend to complicate it, easy like that, everything becomes just so hard and impossible. The entire day i was looking for a client program to connect with my C++ written server. I mean, i tried a lot of chrome add ons, few programs. My classmates used Fiddler - but it took me a while to understand it, and when i did, my client didn't really connect my server, i thought i was getting insane! It turns out - you won't ever believe it, that below my made request for connection was a blank information box- i figured it should be left like that. So the entire day i was trying to look for other clients, and with every connection my server fell. I mean I'm not a programmer - but i could feel for a second how a programmer feels when his/her program won't suddenly work - it's kind of devastating. So you now understand that the information box meant to be filled with some kind...