candleburn

Carried with the waves, Long and still, my breath is caught by the humming breeze, The hot sand underneath, the peaceful view, I'm looking for you to guide me through, It was long ago, when I took this journey, I'm still looking for the desired answers, For you to tell me what the future holds, Frantic, that's how they call me, The shimmering sparkle of your eyes, I'm looking forward to meeting your gaze, One more phase, I am not going to put it on hold I was waiting too long to make that step , The gentle waves are leading me to the depths of the sea, I'm not afraid to look at the eyes of the death, That's the path I ought to take, It was something I needed to do, I've to figure out for myself. The truth of life, The meaning behind my existence, Please don’t wake me, There's only one step from my own redemption.

I've lost the spark, the growing gap, I can't make up for what is lost, The draining touch of the ray of the sun, Makes it harder to keep going, Looking for a clue, there's no one who Can possibly know, There's no one that actually cares, It's you and what is around, You can't make any sound, I feel like I'm a stranger in my own skin The protective shell is gone. Picking up the pieces of my soul, It won't be the same. The knowledge remains solid The mask you've put, Is no longer there, Groaning in between, I've lost my own track, I don’t know what I'm, You can't claim, That everything is going to be alright, The real pain is out of others sight I've lost the spark; it won't be the same again, Clashing all the norms, There're too much storms for me to handle, The view of the crashing waves makes me realize, That what is real, is what you feel inside, Anything besides that you can leave aside

It's dim outside, I'm fighting with urge to close my eyes. Staying still in the same position, It seems like forever since the first dawn, I cannot wait longer, not now, I cannot hold the trigger, no more, One simple push and I am gone I can sense the threshold, It's not that far away, one single reach, One single reach and I'm going to be closer, Closer to you, The fright is going to fade, There's no such thing as fear, As far as I'm concerned it's you that I'm afraid to lose, And not the other way around, The mist is not fully gone, The will to pull what seemed so wrong, Is what you feared the most, but no more? There's a crack you must hold onto, It's you and I that must take the leap, Jump to the frozen water, It's not the fear that deceived us, But the unknown

We know what we are, The roots that we tend to stick to, We are what we believe in, Caught by the breeze of air, the assumption arises Tracing for the corner in order to stick to it, I won't let go, See the difference, What you are, is not enough, The tangible wall of comprehension, Is always there, Thee could see, mere a glimpse of the truth, Not everything that could be seen, is what it is, The branching out sprigs,The unending roots underneath, There's a long way ahead of us Looking for the truth in life, Looking for a reason, the motive To speak up what's is on our mind, Only the actions we make can prove, Prove everyone, that what you're able, Is real and not disguised.

Over the rainbow you can find the magical land. I knew that I can get there; I knew that I was able to achieve my goal, was it so far away? I couldn’t tell. A single person could go through lots of phases in life, he never steps back, but if he does, he does it in order to understand the action he miscomprehend, that single person won't let that single mistake to turn his life backwards. There is this situation that made me feel uncomfortable; I didn’t know what I'm anymore…. I was always looking forward, never stepping back, was I fast forward? It was like living in amusement park, you can take the rollercoaster or the moving swings, and it was not possible for you to figure out what is going to happen? Will you feel happiness or nauseous? It's a black or white situation, and you're the one who defines whether it's black or white. You can be really passionate about something; you also can pass this passion to the ones you love, so they would be able to relate

Groaning looking at the view that is In front of me, There's this feeling like something is missing, There are memories that I may have repressed, As I look at the sun rising, the beautiful dawn, I'm standing mesmerized; I know the pain is gone, Because now I remembered again what was lost I recall the squeaking swings, the long slides, I recall the fall, the yellowish leaves on the ground, I recall the snow, watery and cold, I recall the smells, the pace on the road, The memories I repressed were long lost, The urge to grow is the only thing that has left, When have I lost the kid that was inside? While I was getting my insights of life, Exploring every move, every sign, I was lost in my own made cross road, I chose the trail that was wrong at that time, Now I regret the decision I've made, I needed to try and put myself on hold, Just a bit more there was still time to get to the Lighthouse, but out of fear I ran And never looked back.

There's always a way to figure out what to do, but now I'm lost. I can't put the feeling I feel altogether, he's leaving, I'm staying. I lost so much time, that I could have spent with him. I can easily be pessimistic and go on and on about how bad I feel, instead I decided I will choose the alternative, I'm going to be optimistic as much as I can in this particular situation. I logged to my instant messenger and saw that he's online. "hey, what's up", I asked him, "not much you know I'm still quite in shock that you felt so much and hid it all from me for such a long time, you're seriously someone I admire, I mean I could not have done the same if I were you. There's a brick wall that stands in between us now. You know that I feel certain feelings towards you too, but those are just feelings, I don’t want to make you miserable, it would be too hard for me to handle. I think this separation is going to be something good, we are