candleburn

When I look around me, what do you think I see? I see how other people live their lives, and I think there's something really wrong with the way I'm living mine. Today, after another long day at work I was taking the bus to get home. On the bus I saw few young girls talking about their purchase at a cheap beauty store. Then, when I got off the bus I saw a young family walking their little baby, they were talking cheerfully about some random topic. Then it hit me, these people look so content with themselves they feel like a whole unit when you look from the side. So why am I feeling so broken inside? Even though I know all the people at work, I don't think I've connected to any one. I'm not keeping in touch with any one after the work is over and it makes me sad and happy. Today Jessie and I were chatting via email. I like it very much when she talks about her days – because they're so full of life, she's always doing something, she's

Why did you say that you'd be there? Why did you step in and then disappeared? You told me that I have a choice to make, You told you'd guide me through, I blindly followed you into the dark, Now I'm left out on the bare cold ground, Please pull me up from drowning in this muddy mound, You told me that I have a choice to make, So I ran to look for my own truth, I knew I had to make myself from scrap, I blindly believed you'd guide me through, I was collecting your promises, Without any cautions, Not knowing these are future thorns for me to bleed from, Why would you make false promises? Without any cautions i sank in, Why did you step in and then disappear? I was left behind still looking for my safety net. I guess you've made your shot, You saw me looking for thorns, not for real hopes. You appeared and then disappeared just in time to see me hurt You had my system shut, Are you happy now? I'm pulling myself