candleburn

oh no, there again, the sleepless night that is keeping me awake oh no how can i keep go on? everything around me seems to collapse oh no - what have i done? I'm looking forward to living my feelings - but it feels so far away - too far away. it's hard to be honest with yourself - it's hard going forward and then making all the way back. the likelihood of winning someones heart stands next to the likelihood to loving yourself. oh no, there again, i seem being trapped- and the feeling doesnt fade - how is it possible to lose control and just be?

childhood memories - maybe it's the first time -  that i acknowledged today that i've never got over the fact that we moved to Israel. i'll always wonder if it was the right choice - sometimes i think it could have turned out much better for my family if we stayed - my parents would not have struggled that much and maybe had been happier.