"A long time ago"

A long time ago,

A long time ago that I've given up,

I've given up on what I thought I should do,

I was afraid,

A long time ago, I can’t recall the time,

I thought I'm not good enough,

I thought that with time I'll find my way,

But it was only a step back,

I stepped back and never moved on,

A long time ago,

I've given up on myself,

I told myself I'm not good enough,

And today, years later,

I can't fall sleep at night,

My mind keeps buzzing with silent screams,

I look up at the ceiling and wish for it to stop,

A long time ago,

I thought that I should not do it,

I thought that I'm not good enough,

Now years later I feel the after effects,

Now my heart shows me what my mind has denied,

It doesn't matter if I'm good enough,

I still can retract my phases from years ago,

I still can be my own,

I'm good as it is,

I'm good, as long as I find joy.